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Within a one-hour trip traveling from one place to another in Mexico, the universe took away all of the material possessions that were important to me; or I should say, everything that I thought was important appeared to have been taken away from me.
I lost one of my traveling bags during this trip, which contained my personal laptop, cell phone, airplane tickets and some other devices and documents. I thought it had only been misplaced at first, but after trying to track it down everywhere it could have been and not finding anything; I couldn’t ignore the possibility that it might have been stolen.
In the beginning, I did what anyone would have done -- going through my memory in as much detail as I could, to remember any existing accounts on my computer, change the password, stop my cell phone number, contact my flight agent… etc. As all the “practical” part had been taken care of, a shocking realization came that I had also lost all my music, all my photos through my life, and all of the compositions and articles, books, designing works or ideas that I had ever had.
There was a moment of void in my experience, and then it was filled with pure silence and bliss. I started laughing; all my friends around me started laughing about the whole thing. I laughed because of the clear recognition that I really do not own absolutely anything; I don’t actually own the memories of anything that happens in my life; I don’t own the music I love, I don’t own any of my compositions or ideas, I don’t own any part of my life, or myself, and that is freeing.
Many of us spend so much energy and time trying to protect our identity in order to feel a sense of existence – our bodies, our memories, our ideas and inspirations, our relationships with others, all the material things we have: a house, a car, a company, a job, some money… etc. So much fear is based on the fear of loosing our identity; fear of loosing our “selves”, fear of loosing the reference point, fear of letting go of control.
The truth is, we don’t own anything in the very first place. It is only the appearance of owning, a false identification or sense that we are separated and alone, an unnecessary need to protect some illusionary fantasy.
Yes, it is scary to let go. It is scary to the mind. The mind is afraid to face the obvious fact that we don’t own anything in the beginning. The mind is happy with the little personal comfortable world that it has created for itself, where everything is familiar, repetitive, expected, and known. But there is a greater Will in play; It is forever, and is the only Will that is ever in charge. This life was never meant for ourselves or for the comfort of the ego; it is meant for excitement and adventure. It is meant to be open and to receive the unending river of Grace. Beyond our little perfect world is a Universe that is spacious and timeless, that is infinite and eternal. And it is by turning our attention away from our limited identity that we can finally have our attention available for the greatest part of the universe, the infinite part of our true identity.
It is freeing. It is freeing to live fearless of loosing anything, by recognizing that we don’t own anything in the first place to be lost. It is freeing, to live with infinite potential instead of the limited beliefs about ourselves. It is freeing to surrender to a greater Will and let it take over all control.
When we realize that we don’t own anything, the whole world belongs to us. There is nothing lacking.
I lost one of my traveling bags during this trip, which contained my personal laptop, cell phone, airplane tickets and some other devices and documents. I thought it had only been misplaced at first, but after trying to track it down everywhere it could have been and not finding anything; I couldn’t ignore the possibility that it might have been stolen.
In the beginning, I did what anyone would have done -- going through my memory in as much detail as I could, to remember any existing accounts on my computer, change the password, stop my cell phone number, contact my flight agent… etc. As all the “practical” part had been taken care of, a shocking realization came that I had also lost all my music, all my photos through my life, and all of the compositions and articles, books, designing works or ideas that I had ever had.
There was a moment of void in my experience, and then it was filled with pure silence and bliss. I started laughing; all my friends around me started laughing about the whole thing. I laughed because of the clear recognition that I really do not own absolutely anything; I don’t actually own the memories of anything that happens in my life; I don’t own the music I love, I don’t own any of my compositions or ideas, I don’t own any part of my life, or myself, and that is freeing.
Many of us spend so much energy and time trying to protect our identity in order to feel a sense of existence – our bodies, our memories, our ideas and inspirations, our relationships with others, all the material things we have: a house, a car, a company, a job, some money… etc. So much fear is based on the fear of loosing our identity; fear of loosing our “selves”, fear of loosing the reference point, fear of letting go of control.
The truth is, we don’t own anything in the very first place. It is only the appearance of owning, a false identification or sense that we are separated and alone, an unnecessary need to protect some illusionary fantasy.
Yes, it is scary to let go. It is scary to the mind. The mind is afraid to face the obvious fact that we don’t own anything in the beginning. The mind is happy with the little personal comfortable world that it has created for itself, where everything is familiar, repetitive, expected, and known. But there is a greater Will in play; It is forever, and is the only Will that is ever in charge. This life was never meant for ourselves or for the comfort of the ego; it is meant for excitement and adventure. It is meant to be open and to receive the unending river of Grace. Beyond our little perfect world is a Universe that is spacious and timeless, that is infinite and eternal. And it is by turning our attention away from our limited identity that we can finally have our attention available for the greatest part of the universe, the infinite part of our true identity.
It is freeing. It is freeing to live fearless of loosing anything, by recognizing that we don’t own anything in the first place to be lost. It is freeing, to live with infinite potential instead of the limited beliefs about ourselves. It is freeing to surrender to a greater Will and let it take over all control.
When we realize that we don’t own anything, the whole world belongs to us. There is nothing lacking.
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